Hi. My name is Pan.
I've been making costumes since 1999. I didn't know that cosplay existed until I attended my first anime convention. When I realized that people were wearing costumes, I remember exclaiming to the person next to me, "You mean I could've worn my Halloween costume!?" I've been cosplaying ever since.
I taught myself how to sew, mostly through trial and error and by learning tips and tricks from my friends. I cosplay because I enjoy finding outlets for my creative energy and because I think it's really fun to dress up in costumes.
I don't think there's any one definition of what cosplay is. I have respect for anyone who dresses up and calls themselves a cosplayer, from cosplayers who spend hundreds of hours on their costumes, to cosplayers who bought their costumes, to cosplayers who made their costumes with duct tape. To me, however you want to cosplay is legit.
I used to let cosplaying stress me out. This was for many reasons. I didn't always cosplay what I wanted to cosplay, and I quickly learned that forcing yourself to work on a project you have little interest in is not very fun at all. Moreover, I used to spend way too much time worrying that people would judge me based on the perceived quality of my costume or by how well I suited a certain character.
I don't think being "good" at cosplaying should be defined solely by how "accurate" someone's appearance is or by how much money and time they have to spend on making a costume. I feel like narrow understandings of what makes a cosplay "good" just end up excluding people or making them feel judged, and that's not cool at all. If negative words, actions or ideas are ruining peoples' cosplay experiences, then I think that we, as a community, need to work towards creating a more welcoming and inclusive environment. I think everyone should be able to cosplay what they want to cosplay and have fun doing it.
If I were to summarize the lessons I've learned from my experiences, it'd tell you that cosplay should be fun. Remember that you don't need fancy sewing skills or makeup or wigs or photoshop or anything else to be a cosplayer. Remember that if other people or dominant social forces are making cosplay toxic for you, that's in no way your fault. Remember that you are beautiful just the way you are. Remember that you are always more talented than you give yourself credit for. Remember that you don't have to be "perfect". Remember that your skill level doesn't reflect your self-worth. And if thinking positively seems like a challenge, remember that you're not alone. These are all things I have to remind myself of.
I'm part of the informal cosplay group known as "PBS". The name "PBS" comes from the first letter of its members' names: Pan, Becky and Sakura. Becky and Sakura are my cosplay partners. ♥ Since I often cosplay with them, you'll see them mentioned and find photos of them all over this website.
If you're looking for me elsewhere, I can be found at Cosplay.com, ACP and DeviantArt. (Note that these accounts may not be up-to-date.)
I take photos at conventions with a simple point-and-shoot camera.
My photos can be found here, if you're interested. [The website is down until I figure out what to do with it.]
Also, my friend Elemental and I ran the Toronto Cosplay Picnic from 2004-2012.
The first incarnation of this website was uploaded onto the internet in 2000 under the name Courageous Wings. In the years since, the site has transformed from my general personal website into a website solely dedicated to my cosplay projects.